I was going through a real rough patch at work a few months ago. It was really effecting all aspects of my life and my relationships. I dug deeper into my prayer life, asking God for some help to get through it. I needed to see some light at the end of the tunnel because I just couldn’t do this job any longer. I prayed, prayed, prayed so hard and over night, I felt relief.
I had a new plan in action and a way to “get out” of my current situation. I’ve found a way to not allow myself to stress about work all day long.
So I stopped praying. I didn’t give up on God but I just didn’t need Him in that way anymore.
And I see that is where I have failed.
I realize I have a pretty comfortable life, low amounts of stress and minimum heartache. I’m blessed, very blessed.
But the problem with living an easy, blessed life is I allow myself to think I don’t need God as much. I believe in God, I pray to Him throughout the day, I thank Him all the time, but I don’t rely on God.
I’m realizing this is a big problem and my life is just too darn comfortable. I’m not doing enough. I’m not giving enough. I’m not living up to the life that God set forth for me.
Not to say that comfort is a bad thing. But I think being comfortable can be a bad thing when it diminishes your relationship with God.
Without realizing it, we start to think we don’t need God daily. We can skip that morning prayer. We can skip that morning Rosary. We can skip that prayer before lunch.
Comfort gives us space to step away from God.
And I don’t want that. I want to be close to God when I’m struggling and not struggling. I need that powerful relationship to be a constant in my life.
So what am I saying here? Do I want God to take something away from me to make me less comfortable so I can be closer to Him? Not exactly. But I want to show God that I am willing to live with less so I can be with Him more.
I’m working on this and trying my best to get closer to Him. I fail countless times. I fail daily. But I’m trying and I know that is a start.