My husband and I had a conversation yesterday about how we both felt stuck in some weird world. Sometimes we feel like we aren’t “Catholic” enough when we hang out with people at church. We both feel that they are at another level than us and they see us as less Catholic than them. Of course these are all thoughts in our head and nobody has spoken these words to us. It is a huge pride thing, for sure.
But at the same time, we feel like our non-Catholic friends are afraid of us. We’ve noticed that a lot of our friends don’t come around anymore and we wonder if it is because they are hesitant to talk with us because of our beliefs. It is a huge pride thing, for sure.
I hate to feel inadequate when around others but time and time again, I find myself comparing and wondering why people don’t like me.
Yet these conversations made us both realize how much we need Confession. These are sinful thoughts that make us feel less than worthy of the person God intended us to be.
I’m so glad we have the Sacrament of Confession. It is a true blessing in our church. Without it, I wouldn’t be able to overcome these feelings and move forward.
I know this feeling. Around non-Catholic friends and acquaintances I can definitely feel “apart” and I agree that sometimes they are uncomfortable too. Sometimes they may be uncomfortable just because you are challenging them (without saying a word) by living your faith. This is a good thing! I think this is part of being “in the world” but not “of the world.” I would try not to worry about it…accept it as part of your witnessing for Christ.
Good point Joanne. You are filled with so much wisdom!